11 weeks
Baby Meyers is the size of a
lime!
It seems crazy to me the jump from week 10 to week 11! Baby has grown so much just since our last ultrasound which was the last time I was in the hospital. The 13th I think. And they did another ultrasound on the 21st. Baby GREW!!! Baby is still healthy and well.
Yes, I went back in to the hospital this week for dehydration and malnourishment. Just part of my hyperemesis. I'm home now and on bed rest. I'm having a hard time eating still, but I am managing to stay hydrated with some food in me.
C R A V I N G S
Well my appetite got so bad that I couldn't keep ANYTHING down. Food, water, nothing. I threw up so often I was having headaches and back pain from it. Anyway, it's funny though I was laying in bed and the nurse told me a cafeteria worker would be coming in to try and get me to order food. I remember praying and admitting to God that eating was painful, emotionally and otherwise. I told him I would eat everything on my plate if lunch was macaroni and cheese and green beans. Sure enough, the worker comes in and the first thing she offers: macaroni and cheese and green beans. I was so floored that I agreed to it and ate it all. It was the first full ish meal I've eaten in almost two weeks. It stayed down. God doesn't do random. That was a miracle.
Movement is being felt!
While in the hospital, I started feeling weird movement in my lower belly/abdomen. I expressed this to my doctor and she said "Well, you know you did know the exact day and hour you became pregnant and you're so
sensitive to [I like to say "in tune with"] growth of the fetus, it is possible. Let's see. So they brought in a mobile ultrasound (to check on baby as well as see what's going on). I always look away when they first put the ultrasound wand on my stomach because it's always cold, and I dislike the feeling of the goo. Suddenly I felt the weird movements again and kinda made an "oof" sound. My OB goes "Yup, baby's moving. That's so cool!" I'm so glad my OB is as excited as I am, and she's been in the biz' a while. I have to say that I am so grateful to be able to feel those little flutters so early. It gives me tangible hope that this pain that I'm suffering and trials we're enduring will all be worth it once we get to be with our baby. I almost cry when I feel the flutters, I feel so connected that I've started talking to him or her. I sing to him or her now too. I don't know if the baby can hear me or not yet, but I like to think that it makes our connection very tender.
~ Our 1 year Anniversary ~
Our first Anniversary was on the 17th and of course, I was sick. But my wonderful Superman came home with deep purple flowers (my favorite color) and caramel milk chocolates (favorite candy). He spent the evening with me and we watched Princess and the Frog on the laptop. It was wonderful. I love him so much. I am so grateful for the time I have had with him. I wouldn't trade it for the world. I still have a huge crush on him and blush every time he flirts with me :) He makes me the happiest person in the world and I would do anything for him. I'm so glad he asked me to marry him, and so happy that we were married and sealed in the Portland Temple, which is also where we both got our endowments before our missions. It's the temple we both grew up with. It was a wonderful day to be married in a place that holds so many memories for us both.
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I've really grown so much with this trial I'm going through. Sometimes when I go through something difficult like this, I am paralyzed and can't see the blessings in disguise. Often I can't seem to find the good or learn very much from my trial. But this time, it's different. I've learned to realize that I CAN get through this, I just have to be tough. With my fear of needles, I tell myself right before it happens "you WILL live. This IS necessary for you and baby to live. Be tough, it won't hurt when it's done." That's kind of how I've coached myself through the especially hard moments. I've learned small things like citrus smelling lotion and bodywash, pedialyte, music constantly playing, and watching stand up comedy comfort me. They don't take the pain away, but they make me happy and distract me from incidences like today where I have thrown up 20 times since I woke up. Clean sheets and citrus smells relieve nausea a little bit too. I'm very grateful that I am learning from this trial. I know I WILL live. I will become tougher and stronger from this trial. And like I tell myself with needles "Be tough, it won't hurt forever."
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